Wednesday, July 31, 2013


In psychology the concept of tabula rasa is that at birth the mind is a blank slate and that as we go through life we collect a store of sensory images and write on this slate. I propose that these sensory images, or memories, create a map of our lives that in turn creates our self identity. When we lose our ability to access this map we lose our sense of who we are, our sense of self.

In Alzheimer’s, the pathways that allow us to connect to our memories become interrupted by inflammatory reactions within the brain tissue. At first these interruptions are intermittent, much like a short circuit in an electrical wire, and account for the good days and bad days that Alzheimer sufferers experience. As the disease progresses the connections become permanently damaged and access to the knowledge and memories permanently lost.

Along with the loss of memories there is a loss of self identity, the knowledge of who we are, who others are, how we relate to the world around us. In the earlier stages of the disease the sufferer is often aware of the gaps that are appearing in his knowledge and awareness. This is often a time of confusion, fear, anxiety and helplessness.

The word dissolution is used here to describe the fading away and gradual disappearance of the memories and therefore of the self awareness that makes us who we are.

The colored areas in the quilt represent the parts of the self map that are still accessible. The quilted but white areas represent where the memories are being lost but may still be intermittently accessible, while the large blank areas are where they are no longer accessible.

The image of the elderly face is isolated from everything and gradually disintegrating, disappearing as the sense of self dissolves. The image is dissolving and becoming less solid in appearance. The eyes show the fear and confusion of the earlier stages of the disease when there is still enough awareness to realize what is happening.

The materials are hand dyed cottons and cheesecloth and mono printed fabrics that have been fused, painted, thread painted and quilted.



  1. What a strong quilt, you have captured the fear in those eyes.

  2. Again very philosophical work! Great!

  3. My goodness, this is amazing! Both disturbing and something that one can identify with.

  4. Janice this is brilliant portrayal of this disease, beautifully crafted too. You show the fear very sharply. Wonderful work!

  5. I think you have captured the fragility of the human mind when it lapses into Alzheimer's extremely accurately. The expression on the face does look so confused and fearful. I agree with Deborah, something both fearful yet I can fully relate to it as my grandmother went through this horrendous disease. Great work Janice.

  6. A quilt is worth 1000 words.
    This one speaks very clearly.
    You are a communicator Janice.
    This is for sure.
    Very powerful.

  7. Stunning Janice, sad and disturbing, so evocative of that loss and fear, and such attention to detail.

  8. I like the fragments and the strong lines, which ground the work and allow the loss of memory to still have connections.